I was checking out my own profile on Facebook editing and what not; I came to the "About Me" section and realized that I have started 2 blogs that I have been terrible at keeping current. It is now 2015 over 2 years since my last post and things have changed drastically.
One huge thing is that I am a senior at Northern Illinois University working on my bachelors degree in Special Education.I have had so many great experiences in my educational journey and have not regretted a single moment. I have loved all the students I've had the chance to meet and teach. I have found a new love for what I want to do and am more motivated than ever to complete my education.
Second, my son is now a 7 year old! He just entered 2nd grade! It is so crazy how fast kids grow up. I wish he could stay my little baby boy forever because it is so much easier. He is still a little menace but with more words and ramblings in his repertoire. I love him more every day because I can see his personality and some of the things that make him tick. It is absolutely mesmerizing to take a step back and see what, why, and how he does things.
The last notable thing that has happened is that I found a love that I've never had before. Something that has no end and no real beginning for that matter. I gave my whole heart away on a whim knowing that anything that might have been lasting was not even an option. It is hard to think that as a single mom you will never be able to do or act in any way that you want. You have no choice not to be a mother and that may scare people. Everyone tells me that I will find someone who will understand and who will love us both, but its really hard to think of that possibility. This one was special and way different than what I've experienced in the past. Even though my heart is crushed I have known this great feeling with or without it being returned. I have learned so much from this and I am glad that I've known how this feels- true, unconditional, unapologetic love. I may never find it again, but I'm so happy it was with someone like him.
So... that is my current life in a nutshell. Things have changed drastically and I'm glad with all the ups and downs I am still pushing along and defeating my obstacles. Maybe this time I will plan to write posts so I can document the next few years better.
