After the birth of my amazing little man things seemed to be good with the baby daddy but I had this gut feeling. I cant really explain what it was but all I knew was I felt really nervous with him around. Maybe it was the fact that I haven't seen him for months and so he was a complete stranger to me or what. So that night he stayed with us at the hospital and everything on the surface was great. We got to go home the next day which was exciting. I love hospitals and wish I could have stayed but it was nice to go home and not have a lot of people around. Its a mistake to say that because the wedding was just 2 days before and everyone was still there. But it wasn't bad, I got a little company and everyone love the sight of a new baby.
The next week my parents went on their honeymoon... I'm a 20year old first time mom and was going to be home alone for 2 weeks! It was a hectic time and I was worried. Luckily the baby daddy offered to help (I was surprised to say the least) but I still had that queasy feeling while he was around. But they said that my Grandma would stay with me for a week too so I was only going to be alone for a few days. Good for me we had friends near by to help if I needed it. The day came where my parents left and I was home alone with baby daddy.
It was the first night when it happened. I got really nervous, I haven't been alone with him and my child without anyone else around so I asked him to leave the room after I put the baby in his crib. I told him I was feeling uneasy and it would help if he just left the room for a bit. He refused. I kicked in to mom mode so fast, I just jumped up and stood in front of the crib and told him to again please leave, he refused again and I grabbed my phone. I told him please don't make me call the cops and have you escorted out. A little harsh but I was doing a back bend over the crib he was so close to me and I was truly frightened. He then grabbed my arm and took my phone and then I used as much of my weight I could to shove him off. He refused to leave my room and was now refusing to leave the house. I was so worried it might escalate into something horrifying so I picked up my baby and remembered that the house phone was in the basement. The second he turned his back I rushed down 2 flights of stairs to get to the basement. I realized then all the numbers were in my phone but I was so glad that the phone was in the office where I could use the computer. I finally got in contact with someone and they came as soon as they could. I was shivering and crying as baby daddy was banging on the locked door, I told him someone was coming to help me and that he is only hurting the baby by having me stressed out. After 30 minutes I didn't hear anything, I wanted to unlock the door but felt he was still there waiting for me. Until I heard a familiar voice and knew it was safe to leave. My dad's friend came to my rescue and told him to leave the house otherwise the cops would be involved. He then came inside to lock all the window and secure the doors just in case he was going to do something stupid. I felt a little better but I sure didn't want to be alone anymore. There was no one to stay with me so I toughened up and braved the loneliness.
I was so happy my baby was safe and wasn't looking forward to the return of the baby daddy.
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